Europe: A Journey (Chapter 1)

Chapter 1 

The Streets of Montmartre (Paris, May 8-12, 2012)

It is near midnight as I sit at the departure gate for my flight to Charles De Gaulle. Already I feel in a distant land - even though I am still in Malaysia the character around me has changed. I hear the French and see those waiting to return to their homeland. Are they happy, or sad? They greet each other and I try to pick out a few sentences with my woefully limited grasp of the languages I was supposed to learn before travelling. Bonjour, Ca Va. Au Revoir. That was about it. I sigh and slowly file into the plane.

The flight could be best described as mildly torturous. I had done 12 hour stints in chairs in my previous workplace, but this was even less pleasant. Even as an averagely tall person the seats were puny. Now I understood why people shelled out thousands more for Business class. It’s the stretching room. The sweet, sweet legspace. 

I pass by many lands on the way there, lands I could dream of walking on. I see scattered cities, lit in the night, arteries of light leading into its glowing heart. Once, I looked down and see what I thought was the ocean. I look at the map and realize that it is, in fact, a moonlit desert. 

Sleep was elusive with only the cold window to lean on. Finally though, we arrive and are greeted with a cold spring rain. The plane lands smoothly on the tarmac. I look around. It looks...normal. But here I am.

I expected some questioning at customs and passport patrol. None of that, thankfully. The officer takes one look at my passport, stares at me for a brief moment and stamps it. “Bonjour,” I said to him, reminding myself of my manners. It is early and the airport is still mostly empty. Making my way to the Tourist Information booth, I stand by and watch as the lone employee sets up for the day.

“Bonjour” I greet him and purchase a tourist pass (meticulously calculated by me to save some money. Considering the exchange rate, it helps to pinch every Euro). Then the came the train. Excitement, dread. Paris, here I come.

The train ride was anti-climactic of sorts. Your scenery on the way from the airport into the city will consist of generic graffiti sprayed onto dilapidated buildings. I could only imagine how uneasy those at the Tourism office must feel, considering those are the first things visitors to the city will see. Or maybe they just don’t care.

I pull into the station and get my first taste (and smell) of the Parisian metro. Damp air and urine are its hallmarks. I don’t mind, really. With my smartphone app I plan my route to my hostel, in Montmartre.

As I walked up the steps of Lamarck-Coulaincourt I realize that I had not seen the city itself - my journey had taken me from the outskirts into the tunnels. So with bated breath (from all those stairs!) I exit into the streets of Montmartre. 

It is...beautiful. The rain had stopped and only the damp morning air greeted me. I see the half open shops and vendors on the sidewalk. I turn around and a sense of deja vu (ha) fills me. Where have I seen this before? I look at the stairs that up and around the entrance Metro station. And ah, yes. I have seen it before. From a movie called Amelie. Just like the movies, then.

As I entered the hostel I was to stay I braced myself for that legendary Parisian rudeness. Surprisingly though, the reception was kind and helpful and directed me to a place where I could store my luggage as being rather early I could not check-in yet.

I had supposed to meet up with my brother who arrived the day before (a quirk of Air-Asia’s rebooking me on another flight). Being rather inpatient and not sure whether he was in or out, I was on my way within minutes. Guess what was one of my main destinations that day?

Well, Le Musee du Louvre. It’s practically the reason I’m in Paris. The art, the history, the monuments. All within one huge complex that would take days to explore entirely (I went there twice and only just scratched the surface). 

Bypassing the huge queue I made my way into the pyramid entrance, but not before having a baguette sandwich next to the pigeons. My museum pass conveniently allowed me to walk past the long long line (the Louvre has many entrances, some with no queue at all. Most people are content however to enter through the glass pyramid. Because reasons.)

I enter the pyramid and go down the escalator into a huge hall filled with people. Already I am lost in the size and sea of choices to go. North, East, South or West? I pick up a map and search for the good stuff. Near East, Renaissance. 

The Louvre was unusually cold that day, the structure perhaps built to trap cold (and heat?) in. I wonder through the sometimes crowded, sometimes deserted hallways. I spot a 1500 year old stele written in another language. I gaze at it in wonder. It is left there, unprotected. I could simply reach out and touch it but decide not to. No one is there. Just my conscience. 

Then I enter the room of paintings. It is like entering a dream. Paintings of all sizes line the hallway. I look left and right and realize already that this is too much. I am on the verge of being desensitized by their greatness. And so I go on.

The prize of course that everyone seeks for is the Mona Lisa. But as someone told me, you don’t go to the Louvre to see the Mona Lisa. You go there to see people seeing the Mona Lisa. I was reduced to standing from a far, looking at a painting almost insignificant and banal surrounded by a throng of admirers. Was it a replica or the real thing? The Mona Lisas were rotated around. Did they even show us the real thing? It’s the experience I guess, another thing to check off the bucket list. What really grabbed my attention though was the piece opposite of the Lisa, the Wedding at Cana. It is splashed across in grand scale with only a handful of viewers looking briefly at it. Surely this is the underrated piece of art here.

I walk out, senses still overloaded. I realize that I had only been there for less than two hours. Nowhere near enough to see all the Louvre has to offer. I resolve to come back again and go to the third museum for the day.

Did I say the third? The morning I arrived I had dropped my bags and decided to have an appetizer. The Musee Rodin. It was a quick entry with my pass and decent escapade. The gardens were lovely, the Thinker was alright. Already out of place in a world with little time to engage in such activities.

I leave the Louvre and have another snack at the Jardin Tuileries. The wind blows cold and I already feel somewhat comfortable doing what others are doing - sitting down and enjoying the gloomy day.

The Orangerie is small and understated, somewhat I suppose, like the pieces of art it holds (with perhaps the exception for the sprawling Lilies of Monet, but even then they seem tame compared to the Wedding at Cana). 

As expected, the abstract art piqued some of my interest but flew past me for the most. I figured I’d call it a day. Going to the toilet, I wonder where the handle for the faucet is. I look around and someone helpfully points out I need to step a button on the ground. Another thing that flew past me.

I settle back into my hostel and meet my brother who has already made a friend, a shaggy haired Spanish-African busker. I am tired, jet lag had been kept at bay for the day but not much longer. I sleep.

Clouds still shield the sun as I get up. I don’t mind, really. From Malaysia where heat is the order of the day, overcast skies are a respite. But in Europe, as I find out later on, you soon wish for the sun.

I learn the day before that while I was admiring the masterpieces at the Louvre my brother was driving one. He splashed out some cash to drive a Lamborghini around Paris. Different strokes for different folks, I suppose.

On the itinerary today were two more highlights, the Notre Dame and the Eiffel. We head first for the Gothic church. On the outside, from a distance the facade seems underwhelming. Go close though and the intricate details come into view. As you enter you are astonished at the size of the cathedral, seemingly being able to create space from nothing.

We walk through the cold church along with a soundtrack of choral chants from the morning prayers. It is strangely peaceful. If there is one thing I enjoy about the Cathedrals in Europe is that despite their Grandeur they are usually open to everyone most of the time. A far contrast perhaps from our megachurches with strict opening hours. A pity then, that such architectural magnifience draws more tourists than worshippers - a result of Europe’s secularism (so we are told).

I slowly begin to get the hang of Paris. The Metro systems, arcane at first, become easy to navigate (thanks in due part to a handy smartphone app). The multiculturalism allowing some comfort amid the crowd (unlike, say, in certain parts of Germany where I was met with stares). Once, while I was in the Metro, I noticed I was the whitest person in the entire carriage. Africans tend to cluster here, and I do wonder how uneasily native (white) Parisians view them. Somewhat perhaps, like how we view our immigrants in Kuala Lumpur.

I am walking out now from the Metro, up the steps and into the light. My pace is slow, I am unsure of my surroundings. Then I get my bearings, head up some more steps and am greeted with an iconic sight.

Probably the best way to approach the Eiffel Tower is through the Trocadero. There, the Tower stands grand and symmetrical as you walk along the wide expanse. It is breathtaking, and for a few moments Paris regains it’s fabled magic. 

We walk to the base and linger. We are too cheap to take the elevator, too lazy to take the stairs. So we watch and wait for the sun to set and realize that here the sun doesn’t set at 7 in the evening (like it always does in Malaysia!). It is nearly 9 at night when the sky darkens and the Tower is illuminated with light. Again, fleeting glimpses of beauty before we return home through the dank underbelly of the Metro.

In my itinerary I figured a break from the city would be nice, and me, my brother and a fellow traveler from New Zealand headed off on a side trip to the Chateau Vincennes in the outskirts of the city. The weather has taken a turn for the worse, but it was manageable. We made our way into the muddy grounds and skulked around. I took a quick peak into the interiors. Nothing to shout about. We snuck into the Chapelle to enjoy the view. 

The weather was better and we continued on to the Bois de Boulogne. There I parted ways, I had pulled a muscle and decided to call it quits for the day. Travel hazards. I head home, rest and ponder on the city.

Paris Syndrome is a so called culture shock that strikes tourists, most often the Japanese. The incongruities of the Asian tourist, accustomed to politeness and fed with images of an enchanted fairy land struggles to reconcile his perception of Paris against her reality. My images of the city, idealized though may be, were (thankfully) informed by some films that did not shy away from Paris’ darker side. I came prepared.

But despite the graffiti, the stink of urine in the Metro and Paris’ infamous level of customer service, it still held a certain charm for me. As I sit on the train that would take me to the Orly Airport, then on to Rome, I feel a small tinge of regret. Yes, I would be returning to this place in a month. Yet I had only scratched the surface. Such is travel.
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Europe: A Journey (Prologue)

Prologue

The journey began rather unusually. I was sitting in front of a computer, with nothing to do. I had volunteered as an intern to a political party’s office, which had just recently swept to power in the state. It was the honeymoon days, when idealism was something still realistic to believe in. 

I was alone in the office and browsing through the Internet, looking for interesting things to while the time away. Then I stumbled upon a picture. It was, for lack of a better word, beautiful. A green valley, carved by a glacier and covered by alpine green with waterfalls at its sides. It was Lauterbrunnen in Switzerland. 

Almost immediately then, Europe came back to me. For it had been away from my mind for quite some time.

I had just about reached the end of my teenage years, which were spent not really in school (I was homeschooled), but in college. At the tender age of 15 I began my diploma (not that starting early mattered much - I only finally got my degree when I was 21). It was a combination of the suggestion of parents and lack of purpose on my part that I chose to enter college to study for a business degree (a bittersweet decision). 

The Grand Tour began to form in my mind, after I first saw that image. It is named of course after a famous tradition, a rite of passage, that began hundreds of years ago and continues to this day (as I will find, largely among Caucasian Americans and Australians). To travel to a distant, exotic, yet civilized land.

I live in Malaysia, a peninsula that marks the tip of South East Asia (Singapore would be the full stop). Yet I had not really traveled my own lands, so to speak. In a classic case of green grass on the other side, while Europeans arrive by the plane loads to our beaches and cities, my eyes were elsewhere. 

Europe was a no brainer as a destination of choice for a teenager looking for a definitive rite of passage. The monuments, the history, the culture. Huge and subtle variations all within easy reach of one another. But there was one little problem.

A teenager usually does not have a lot of money. And my own pride dictated that there would be no parental funds involved. This was going to be my trip. From my own bootstraps. You could have hardly found a better motivator for someone to get off his behind and start looking for work.

And find work I did. I settled into a decent job in IT. It payed well. It was something I moderately enjoyed. It was slow but it was sure and I began to accumulate the money I needed to make it a reality. Oh, but what a ride it was.

Our budget carrier, AirAsia had the cheapest route to Europe - from Kuala Lumpur to Paris. I woke up early in the morning to purchase a ticket while it was on sale, and snagged it for a rather cheap RM1,500 (around $500) return. I was in the clear, or so I thought until an email arrived in my inbox less than three months before I was to take off, saying that unfortunately, the route was discontinued.

It gets better, of course. I get a call saying that I had been rebooked to a flight on Malaysia Airlines (getting pulled over by the police in the process!). So that was settled. Then began to long and ardous task of meticulously planning my route.

I am not the free and easy type. While I do believe in leaving some room for spontaneity, I had decided based on cost-effectiveness that the traditional Rail Pass wasn’t for me and decided to book point to point tickets which worked out to be cheaper but meant that by routes were fixed.

Then came the hostels. I had at least one of them cancel on me, but again, another smooth process.

And in the early days of May 2012, I left (along with my brother, a last minute addition to my journey) to another land for an adventure of sorts.

Wanderings - Part 23

It's a very hard thing to think about possibilities. I often ask people what they want to be. If I'm lucky I'd get a half-hearted reply; most times it's a blank stare. A few have answered with conviction and I nod and smile. Good luck. Really, good luck and all the best.

So then if the same question was asked of me, what would I say? I still don't know. It's a blur of possibilities. At least I hope - sometimes, when I am sober, the realization hits me that I will probably amount to nothing much in life. And there's evidence to show for that. Unfulfilled promises, abandoned drafts, imaginary magnum opuses. To think I laugh at other people's meanderings. Hah. Joke's on me.

Nevertheless, one must shrug and move on. I remember a rather depressing comment an elderly person made that you get more mellow with age for the simple reason that you realize that you are not that great after all. Now, I pride myself on having rather decent self-esteem. But it does get to you.

'No!' The other part of me would argue. 'Look at you', he says, 'only a little over two decades in age and already faking world weariness and mid-life crises. There is so much more to come!' And there is truth to that. But still.

Dear reader, if you have been reading this blog for some time you will realize a long connecting thread that runs through my short pieces here, and that is uncertainty which has grown as I have gotten older. If there is one thing I fear the most, it's not knowing what would happen tomorrow. Not knowing where I would be in a year, two, three years time. I have seen people embrace and even revel in their lack of prescience. I however would curl up, think, argue, plan, grumble with myself. What are you going to do, Daniel? How can I make myself matter?

Oh, I've tried. I've tried the good old "stay busy" trick. Eventually I get fed up of doing this and that (to be clear - I love my job, but the tasks contained therein do tend to tire me). Then I just want to stay at home and read a book, watch cats on Youtube. 'Hey,' I am then told, 'why don't you go out more?' Because I don't want to. 'Ah I see. You are an introvert right? You prefer to be by yourself?' Yes, I am probably an introvert. No, I don't really want to be by myself. Loneliness is depressing. It's the 'going out' part that is a chore to me. And no one - extrovert or introvert likes chores, now do they?

If you're someone like me who tries to 'shape' their life, then you would get a clearer picture. Despite my unique ability to keep my emotions bottled while in public (something I very much think more people need to to try doing), I do very much have the need to express myself. This is one of those times.

Thank you, I guess, to the family and friends and the strangers who have in their own way, one way or another, supported me in my walk. I promise (hehe) I will do my best to help others. It's the least I can do.

P.S. - God, if you're reading this, will you answer my questions or do I have to go the long way round, as usual? :-)

S.D.G.

"Changing" The Future - GE13 and Beyond

Barisan Nasional will win. The question is, of course, by how much. A decreased margin will see our PM possibly going the way of our dear Abdullah Badawi. I'm not sure if we will be so keen on his replacement. A bigger win will see him consolidate his hold and give him a strong(er) mandate. Whether he will backtrack on his reforms (however few, there were reforms as PR grudgingly admits) is a question mark, though if the formula works he will keep at it if only to attract the next generation of voters five years down the road.

As for Pakatan Rakyat? Despite the strong wave of support, their time has not yet come. Anwar senses that, and his hints at taking a break from politics point to a weary man. Lim Kit Siang's Johor bid also comes of as last-stand offish. 

The fact is that even if PR somehow grabs Putrajaya, it would be an incredibly tenuous hold. Forget about constitutional changes - BN will make one heck of an opposition and PR's infighting would likely grow worse, stymieing any sweeping reforms or changes.

Change. Ah, a certain man in the States ran on that platform. Worked well, too. A lot of people would disagree he actually delivered on that promise, but that doesn't matter. Everybody loves change - change is good in Malaysia, surely it can't get worse. Right? 

My experience with politics has been bitter-sweet.  Working with a State Representative (whom I admire and respect greatly) was an eye-opening experience and made me realise that it's not just the party you vote for, it's the person. I hope we voters would take some time to look at who we are voting for. And I also learned that politics isn't black and white, establishment and opposition. It's something more like where the hero vanquishes the villain and then tries their best (usually unsuccessfully) not to become one.

Coming back then to BN. People are often baffled at my "neutral" stance (actually I'm not neutral, but still) but that's because I've been thinking and I've been hesitant. A few random thoughts, for what it's worth:-

Arab Spring - change at any cost. Yes, it wasn't done through votes but through an uprising. They lived under dictatorships and their "votes" wouldn't count for much. There was little recourse. Yet the change that came was hardly, for the most part, positive. I'm not for one minute buying BN's "choose stability against chaos" message. But a fractured opposition versus a strongman? Stone me if you want, but I'd prefer the latter.

Chinese "chauvinism" - MCA is pretty much a dead duck. Chinese have fled them. Now DAP is unfairly taking flak for hosting some racial extremists (hello UMNO), but it can't be denied that some of these Chinese has been peddling a less than harmonious message. It was interesting and disturbing listening to a group of Chinese-ed teenagers share their views on BN. "They hate Chinese." I keep hearing. Again, UMNO affliated loudmouths probably have themselves to blame. But it's disturbing to see sentiments like this being spread largely unchecked in the opposition camp. DAP itself would probably reject racial extremism like this (as would UMNO, I hope against hope) but as of now they are not doing much taming these people. If this continues, and with MCA largely gone, the Chinese are dangerously segregating themselves from the majority.

Churches and politics - lots of political sermons recently! It's that time of the year I guess. Most of them unashamedly partisan. Prayers for general "truth and justice" to prevail are still the majority thankfully, yet I'm still hearing some specifically for the victory of the opposition. You know, if we prayed a little harder than we did for Romney to win, maybe it would actually work. There's nothing wrong with politics in the pulpit - it is the moral duty of any Christian to support what is right (even if "right" is unfortunately, a subjective matter) and proclaim it. Yet just like we can get our Bible teaching wrong, our political pronouncements can be off base. My own personal opinion? Let other organizations host political discussions in their churches. A little separation is a good thing, especially if the side you don't support wins and wants revenge for your opposition to them.

The Future - It's going to be a very crucial few years or so for BN after this. Depending on how they play their cards, they will be looking at PAP-style hegemony or becoming the opposition. Najib knows that the next generation won't agree to a social contract they never signed. It's adapt or die. Fighting two fronts - the Opposition and the conservatives in his own party is not easy. It creates a rather diluted and uneven minded man. The constant stream of scandals surrounding him don't help. Many people would rather have someone else (I count myself one of them).

But we don't always get what we want. The majority decides. We make do with what we got. And at least take solace with Churchill, who reminded us that democracy is the worst form of government except for all others.

To Die, And Rise Again

Another Easter, another mandatory reflection. Less formal and thesis-based, more stream of consciousnesses.

Resurrection of Jesus is celebrated, but implications largely ignored. God dies and lives, for us, 2000 or so years ago. Long time, but...just...imagine what that means. No, but work is much more important and life defining - putting the bread on the table > taking the Bread of Life.

Jesus has risen - in my heart. Thankfully I haven't heard that in a long time.

Jesus hasn't risen. All the time, comfortingly. And then I get to explain why, in fact, I think he did. Easter a pagan celebration Christians, didn't you know? It's true most of them don't. History hasn't been our forte. But then again, who really likes history.

You know Jesus, but do you really know Jesus? Yes, faith in Jesus as historical figure or as God who rose from the dead vs. Jesus as my personal Saviour and someone who I know intimately are two different things.  (But why not both?) Problem is I can't "know" Jesus the way I know my earthly father. Those who say they can I envy. Or maybe not. There is a fine line between closely connected to God and mental institution candidate. (Blessed are those who do not see, but believe)

God is silent, His last great display of fireworks two millennia ago (I put it crudely). But that's just me; people can settle for smaller miracles to affirm and confirm their faith. But two thousand years ago, to the faithful Jews, God was silent too but yet they waited patiently for their Saviour to come.

As we now wait.