Observations, and more.

I notice the monitor lizard that swims in the pond. It stops and turns his head to look at something, then moves into brushes. I first think it is a snake, but it is too short.

It's a hot day, and I think that my office's constant air-conditioning has spoilt me. Now I crave for it, whereas when working I find it often annoying. It is always too cold.

Feeling sleepy, will sleep again. I do not think I am going to do much today. Next week, though, is going to be a busy one as someone needs a personal assistant and the task seems to have fallen on me. Two jobs then, but only for a week.

This corporate game is interesting, but repetition is inevitable; in which case I must make the choice to continue or bail. In today's depressive times (as everyone in saying, but don't seem to quite understand) one cannot be blamed if he were to be too cautious. But I am neither cautious nor a person unafraid. I am patient, I think a lot, but I am utterly ambitious. Laugh, if you were to know what I wish to do.

I suppose I ought to rest.

There is a lot to do.

So what to do with my time?

One free today, then work follows unceasingly for the next five days. I hope I get used to it.

The greatest tragedy in mankind's entire history may be the hijacking of morality by religion.

In a sense, quite right. Though one also remembers the tragedy when morality got hijacked by the state. And - perish the thought - by the individual. Either way this is one of the invisible, arbitrary notions we can't deny. Funny how people have invented proofs for God's (non)existence long before they did for "morality".

I think I need to learn another language.

The appreciation of rest; a tiring game.

Up till last week I never really valued weekends, mainly because I had absolutely nothing to do besides house chores and my own independent projects*. That is, until I started work. Yes, work work work. My life has suddenly become busy, and honestly, I laugh at myself for suddenly overnight becoming the cliched white collar worker. My diary, once empty, is now filled with appointments, meetings &c. On any other day, I would have found that disturbing.

But even more disturbingly, I somehow found it fun. It is indeed a fun game (if I may use such an analogy) that requires skill, but also (all too typically) requires a fair amount of grinding. Levelling up, I suppose, is never easy.

So far I am enjoying it. Yes, there is a steep learning curve but I'll get used to it soon enough. But like all games, people get bored of it and either leave to something new (but may not necessarily be more interesting) or stay and keep playing a game that is boring simply because that is the only thing they know how to do and couldn't be bothered to learn something new.

I am learning a lot. But I must also learn to know when I am no longer learning, and move on.

All in a day's work.

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* Including but not limited to watching movies, reading books, doing nothing and watching movies.